Safe and sound...

Its a cold, cold world out there, insecurities haunt us day and night, we are growing paler everyday...Parched lips, sad eyes, messy, unkept hair, neglecting ourselves...outwardly as well as inwardly. We are all so cold, shivering with fear...Is there any place left that is warm and safe?

When was the last time you felt safe and sound? The kind of safe and warm a baby feels inside his mother's womb. Just close your eyes, there is no danger around you, only warmth, coziness and love.
The bitter truth that we can't forever be sound outside, can't hide the fact that some of the most seemingly trivial moments in life have been saving us from completely getting lost in the darkness....
A gently resting hand on our shoulders of a friend...without saying a single word, he just assures us that 'I am right here!'
A tender kiss on the forehead...did you feel the love in it? Thats safety, its like the healing of an excruciatingly painful wound...slow, soft and tranquilizing.
An unexpected hug from a friend or family member...the arms protectively embracing our bodies, melting the ice inside...sometimes even unburdening, when latent tears stream down our face.
I believe no matter how much love has hurt us, its the only thing that can heal us back into the warm-blooded humans that we are. Its the only reason that the world is still in one piece. Its so warm, it radiates through pitch dark nights and kills the monsters of insecurities and fear.
Those little affectionate gestures can mean so much to someone who is breaking inside.
Love, be it from a friend, family or someone unexpected, gives us the strength to fight fear, fate and insecurities. It makes us feel Safe and Sound.

Painfully Beautiful

My heart is broken
And yet, there is a sense of peace
In every piece of it!

You entered my life
Like the waves of the sea
Which gently kisses the shores
And took with you, a part of me.

But as much the sea gives and takes from the shore
He wants to let the river occupy the space in his heart.
And thats where my story starts!

You gave me smiles and took away my pains
You promised me a friendship of no loss and all gains
But I'm sorry, my heart is a wanderer
And it found a place like home near you..
I'm sorry, but I fell in love with you!

I know you'll never feel the same way for me,
I know your heart yearns for someone else
I know because your eyes don't sparkle on seeing me
And yet, I choose to continue loving you
Because it feels beautiful!

I am hurting all the time
But I don't regret that I fell!
I am vulnerable, yet I feel so safe
I am cold..
But inside, I'm warm!
Because my love for you is like a bonfire
Because loving you only takes me higher.
Because it is beautiful!

:'D <3
~Kudos
Bhavya :)

You deserve to breathe...

You remind me of an ocean so deep
Into which every emotion seeps;
And so calm is your never-ending sleep
that I doubt any tsunami would ever
with it the shores sweep!

Why do you keep it all inside?
How can you just soak in all that has hurt you?
Why don't you let out the sadness I see in your hollow eyes
through words understandable?

They say Anger is a devil.
Is it?
Your hurts can be cured through that devil's actions
So, why don't you let him enter you just for a moment?
Why don't you breathe?

Greater monsters have scarred you,
Let Anger come out and be your healer.
At times its gold,c you see?
At times silence gets old and rusty, you see?

I don't see you living,
With all that frustration anchoring.
Breathe! Breathe out some fire!
And those who know you will not get hurt!
Trust me...you deserve to breathe..

~Bhavya

P.S. To all those who seem to have an endless saturation point. This was my attempt to persuade them to let out their frustrations. Trust me, soaking in all the sorrow, all the anger can never make you feel lighter.
Have you seen how at times your anger suddenly starts turning into tears? That's a good feeling you know?
Finally its out! Finally you feel at peace!
Anger's not that bad you see? :)

Most Alive

Where do you feel like yourself the most? When do you feel more alive than ever? Where do you find yourself, where do you find life?

For me, music is where I find myself...not just breathing, living! Escaping from reality is all one wants to do at times, but when you face reality through a medium you don't mind to go through, life doesn't feel harsh.
Sitting in the balcony during sunsets, singing my heart out and not caring about the neighbours...I let my soul breathe! I look for the the answers to the several questions that have been jamming up my mind. I find the answers to most of them, some are overwhelming in a positive way while the others can sting! But music makes me happy, it gives me hope that a happier song is to be played next.

 My playlist comprises of all genres of songs, expressing all kinds of emotions...sad, happy..and yet I love them all. Music has taught me to smile all the time whether life hits a rock-bottom or soars up into the sky, the way I do while listening to all those songs whether they are expressing happiness or sorrow!
It has taught me to see the beauty in everyone and everything. Every person represents a different and unique genre of music, each one of them is worth humming at least once. Music has helped me find myself whenever I felt I was losing myself! It holds my conscience together, it understands me. It speaks the words I can't express; it speaks my language.

No person can be fathomed completely by any person, there will always be a little part of him that no one can reach. That little hidden part is most of everything there is to that person. My music knows that part! :)
 My music = life = me :)

~Kudos
-Life <3

Preserving the Innocence

Innocent, naive, gullible- words that are nowadays used for people whose minds have not really been exploited much by corrupted thoughts, perverted slangs and the ability to NOT judge others by what the so-called WISE & EXPERIENCED people have told you about them.
Or....you could just shrink the above definition in two words..."Bhavya Mathur".
Innocent once was a compliment, it was a treasure that I have held on to for so long. But now? At times it feels like an anchor that is relentlessly pulling me down, inside the sea of darkness. But it is that one thing which distinguishes me from others.
Maybe knowing the politics, the dirty (god knows how!) words, is good in a way that ur enemies will not be able to play you down ,but at the same time compare how much mental torture is suffered by the one who knows too much than the one who is away from all the dirty politics?
My innocence, even if you call it 'lack-of-awareness', os what lets me stay carefree, stay happy and most importantly stay ME!
People who are aware of more gossip, dirty  jokes, weird slangs and game-plays are in not in any way better than those who look at everyone in the same pure-positive  light and look past their tags of good & bad and do not wish to be involved in the dirty jokes and games. They are just people who think superiority can be attained through 'Extra Knowledge' of well, WORLDLY things!
I'm going to preserve my innocence because just because I'm innocent, it does not mean I can't see the good and bad in people, I just give the upper hand to the bettrr qualities.
I say INNOCENCE is a bliss, its an original and it has only made me a better person!

~Kudos!
-I feel good. :)

Outburst of Thoughts

Hey everyone! Long time!

So, this one is just an outcome of a few minutes of pondering over small things in life. It might feel random to some while some might still be able to relate, so read on and see if our thoughts connect!

I believe…

·         No one in this world deserves to be alone, get the feeling of isolation or abandonment.

·         Everyone deserves love and everyone needs it too.

But, I also believe that…

·         To have someone by your side through your thick and thin, you must appreciate the presence of those who never left and always have loved and cared for you.

·         If someone loves you and cares for you, then you better not take them for granted! Because you might lose a gem while trying to collect glittering stones.

Now, some questions that have been occupying the space in my mind for quite some time…

1.       Why and how do people feel alone even when they are surrounded by friends and family who love and care for then endlessly? I mean, who else are they looking for?

2.       Why do people give up on the genuine and strong bonds they have with some and go on looking for an illusionary, fake and unstable bond with those who might never be as affectionate towards them as they feel?

3.       Why don’t people value the love that they get and keep looking past it?

4.       Why do they always realize the value of their past bonds only once they are broken? Why do they cry over it when they themselves were the culprits who broke that bond?

5.       Why do people always see the negative in some people and judge them on the basis of what they’ve only heard and not seen?

6.       Why do people relentlessly try changing their haters into lovers and thus indirectly push their true lovers away, make THEM their haters too?

7.       Why do people let circumstances sadden or weaken them when they always have the  CHOICE to be HAPPY and STRONG?

8.       Even at times when they feel that it’s been too long that they have been strong and can’t hold the tears back, do people consider it the end of the world when they are standing at the end of the tunnel of darkness and despair with the rays of hope and happiness shining in their faces?

9.       How does love become one’s greatest strength and his greatest weakness, both at the same time?

10.   Why do people believe that faking a smile will make them look stronger? It’s fake after all! Don’t you thing sharing your pain with someone you love will help you curl your lips into a real and genuine smile?

~*phew!*

-Bhavya.

They said it was love...

The night is so still

The moon, overshadowed by the clouds of despair and

Even when the sun rises,

I know my state will remain beyond repair.

You came into my life unexpectedly

In you I found a companion to rely on,

Whenever darkness dawned upon

You proved yourself to be a bliss

And now that apart we are torn,

I realize where the step was missed.

They said our friendship was beyond platonic

They said it was love, and unfortunately we believed in what they said

And then they disapproved, isn't it ironic?

And now the relationship that was never LOVE, is dead

 

You were my best friend and I yours

I wish I didn't have to but now,

I regret the unwillingly gifted chocolate boxes and flowers.

I wish it had stayed at level one

Where silly jokes and endless teasing were done

The so called ‘love’ was awkward

I know it was just friendship

That never should have gone that forward

It made the jokes serious and the teasing offending and the biggest impact…

It left you wondering and me crying

On what went wrong and why?

The ‘love’ was a wrong call

It became the reason behind our downfall.

That thing tried working at our friendships cost

That’s why you, who were my gain, became the greatest friend that I lost!

Let’s come back together and try turning the course of time,

Let’s go back to the besties we were

Where everything was just fine

Because the sky is missing the star who could brighten up my day

By just saying, “My friend! Hey!”  :’)

-Bhavya Mathur 

 P.S. So this is my very first attempt at writing a poem, so all criticism will be appreciated and if you like it or not please comment, recommend or share or follow! :)

Kudos

~the poet in kindergarten! :P

One more chance?

Hey guys! My exams just got over and my vacations have begun so this means a lot more blog posts, so wish me luck cause its been quite loonnggg!!
Alright so in our English grammar exam we got this comprehension passage which had the story of two brothers who all of a sudden had completely stopped talking to each other and only reunited when the elder bro heard the news of his younger brother having cancer and he had started with his chemotherapy sessions.
The reason was a petty one over which the younger bro stopped talking to the elder bro and he never bothered asking.
We all must have gone throuugh such phases in life when someone, who we used to be very close to, all of a sudden stops talking to us and as the lazy or rather egoistic generation that we are, we don't even try to find out what could be the reason of this sudden stranger-like behaviour!
Don't you miss those friends, parts of family? Your talks, your jokes, your crazy moments???
The reason could be anything that you are not even aware of, but problems can only be fixed if you know what it really is, right? It could also be the other way round, that something they did hurt you, but it could have been unintended.
I believe when we keep asking life for hundreds- of second chances then it would be quite unfair on our side if we refuse that one single chance that life deserves back. No matter what our relationship-status with that estranged friend is he/she was a major and important part of our lives and its hard to survive with a hole in your life because you put that person aside from it.
Give them another chance, try and break the ice, ask them what went wrong and if you still miss them being a part of you, be honest and confess it! You never know, everything could change...for the better!
So go ahead, talk to them and I don't think that your ego could come in between this time as all that you will be doing is a gesture of favour to LIFE!

P.S. the younger brother dies in a few months, luckily he died without any regrets as he had reconciled and confessed his love to his brother..So you better keep that in mind too make the stitch in time! :D
till the,
~Kudos,
Part-of-life <3

Let our minds go wild...

‘I was born intelligent, education spoilt me!’…I could make out the meaning of this quote by Sir Isaac Newton only after I started looking for something logical and reasonable in everything that involved imagination’s fertile yield. Whenever I read books (which are utterly magnificent), watch television shows or movies, I just don’t feel like using the creative-thinking part of my grey matter, my first statement after every fantasized scene is “This is practically IMPOSSIBLE!”. I guess that’s why it is called the ‘GREY’ matter because some of our minds are not enough open to let us ponder into imaginations and thoughts of different shades of colour and thus resembles to the dust on the old textbooks which have limited our range of imagining.

Come to think of Isaac Newton, had he been educated he would have eaten the apple that fell on his head instead of questioning “WHY?” it fell downwards. After all, apples are meant to be eaten and not pondered upon, that’s what we have been taught! Ten years action-replay…I would question the simplest and commonest of things around me, having curiosity as my only teacher and imagination my head-mistress. But today, my brain seems to have gotten struck with drought, awaiting the arrival of the blissful showers of varyingly coloured thoughts that can make it intellectual and blossoming with wild buds of imagination again.

We need an education system where we are encouraged to question the facts, where already numbered talents are not just acknowledged but extraordinary ideas are recognized as new genres in art which goes beyond infinite.

Until then, I hope for the betterment of our education system which really educates us by not binding our minds around heavy text-books and letting them go WILD & FREE!!!

Kudos

~Draught-stricken.

Happyception! =)

I have been having this feeling for 2 days straight now, and it feels awesome! I am happy, elated, peaceful and my guts tell me that this inception of cheer and delight will last longer than I think and i.e. forever!

This on-top-of-the-world feeling is due to the pleasant realisation I had 2 days back...On New Year's Eve, 2012, I sat reflecting on the things that my world revolved around during this year, 2012-the year of hard studies, 2012-the year of my 1st out of town trip from school, 2012-the year I lost my faith on someone's friendship..It all seemed unhappy. Along came midnight and the 21st century turned a teenager. While felicitating everyone on having survived another year on this earth I really hoped that this year WOULD REALLY BE HAPPY for them and hopefully even me...
One week later, my school reopened and I reunited with my friends from whom the Winter Break had separated me. It was then that I realised how content and satisfied I felt with life when my friends were around me. This also brought to me the reason why I must bow in gratitude to 2012..It gave me a fistful of buddies who entered my life unexpectedly and without warning bombarded me with love and happiness and care which has now has an intoxicating effect on me! :)
With them I my no one else but myself and somehow I feel secure that when I have them no one in this whole universe can dare to ask me to change. Now I know who all will be there for me the next time I feel solitary and will give his/her best shot to make me smile and they will also be happy to see me that way. <3
I want to thank all of you guys for you make me happy just by being there beside me, for I couldn't have asked for more and for every time you made me feel special. You all are my most precious and I will treasure my whole life and even the lives after that (if it really is something! :P)
This is also to all those people who touched my life in such a way that now I carry a complete 32-toothed smile and my eyes prove that I am happy.

the way u make me feel... :)

Thanking you,
Bhavya =)

P.S. I <3 you guys!!! Have the Happiest New Year yet and enjoy your lives along with your BUDDIES!!